midnight thoughts

 Had quite the day today
In the past couple of years I've been prone to outbursts, and i always seem to aim them at the wong person. and then i hate myself.

I have too much going on and i miss having a real relationship. I miss sex. I feel like I'm ok without it for now, too tired, but i know i'm kind of wound up so bad.  i really should get me some. I can't keep pretending I'm fine. I cant do this. I need help.

I need counselling.